Beta #2

Okay so today's beta HCG was, 125. Which is my favorite number :)!


I feel like time is passing so slowly these days! I guess it's my nerves kicking in hoping I make it passed the first 13 weeks without miscarrying. I should probably be more optimistic but I can't help it!

So anyway our first US can't come soon enough, I am so curios to see if it's one or two babies. I am leaning towards one since my beta wasn't sky high, but who knows. Our first US is Thursday, which will just show the gestational sac and how many are in there. I downloaded this pregnancy app on my phone and the baby or babies now went from a poppyseed to an orange seed! So weird lol.

Well, today is a beautiful day where I live so I am going to take our doggie for a long walk on a nearby trail :)

Beta

Well I think we took enough pregnancy tests to know we are in fact, pregnant. I am in disbelief. I feel incredibly blessed that this worked on the first try. And I was warned that once I get pregnant my new worry would be "how to stay pregnant." And that has officially sunk in. Of course it does not help that  I have read all of the horror stories about early misscarrages. Or partial miscarriages of one out of two babies. That is my fear. I will take one or two. I just want a healthy pregnancy. I would have these worries regardless but I think working in the NICU heightens them. I see the worst of the worst. And I hope and pray my baby or babies can hang tight until term.

One thing that is weird to me is that technically I am 4 weeks preggo already lol. Especially doing IVF makes me feel like I cheated, but in reality they count the extra two weeks for everyone. My due date for one baby is December 5, 2013. My due date for two babies is November 12, 2013.

Well to our beta HCG results today, it was 64.8 and since I am 10dp3dt they are happy with that. Our next beta is on Saturday morning. They said they want to make sure it's at least 50% higher by then which should be 97.2, fingers crossed! Our first US will be sometime next week if the beta numbers are doubling appropriately.

BIG THANKS TO "Sea" from the blog "beginningfromthestart" she made the beautiful banner for our blog :)!

How far along? 4 weeks 

How big is baby? Poppyseed 

Total weight gain/loss: None

Maternity Clothes: Not yet

Have you started to show yet? Not yet

Sleep: The tiredness has begun. I wake up at night to pee at least once.

Best moment this week: Seeing the positive pregnancy tests!!

Miss Anything? Soda

Movement: None

Food Cravings: Just food in general, I can't seem to eat enough. 

Anything make you queasy or sick? Nothing specific but I got my first wave of nausea today.

Gender prediction: If twins one of each, if one a boy

Symptoms: Tired some nausea otherwise great!

Major purchases this week? None

Looking forward to: Our next beta Saturday!

BFP :)

Pictures really are worth 1,000 words:

I feel super blessed! Can't wait for our beta on Thursday to see what are numbers look like.

The start of something good!!

So I rarely post twice in one day but this is definitely post worthy....


My crazy self and my wife decided to take yet another HPT. I assumed it was negative and started to walked away when my wife said to me, "Wait I think I see the faintest second line!"

And she was right it's very very very faint but it's definitely a second line! Too faint to even show in a photo lol (you may not be able to tell from the photo below). This could be the start of a BFP! I hope so at least. We are super excited!!! Especially because at 6dp3dt it's still very early!

We will certainly post photos if the line keeps getting darker :)!!

THANKS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND FINGERS CROSSED, WE APPRECIATE ALL THE SUPPORT!

6dp3dt

ONLY FOUR MORE DAYS until our beta!!

Antsy does not even begin to describe what we are feeling. Even though we knew if we took a HPT it would be negative, we still did it. Just couldn't help ourselves. So far the results are BFN. Hoping that changes before our beta on Thursday!

Symptoms wise: Crampy every now and then like I am with my period. Last night my whole body was sore like I ran a marathon lol. But otherwise I feel normal.

Fingers crossed! Baby dust to all!

3dp3dt

So I am almost half way through this tww. If our embryos are still alive they should be over 100 cells by now and hatching out and attaching to the uterine wall. 

So onto symptoms - so far not much. Started getting sharp uterine cramps today. Not sure if it is from the meds or something else. C and I have decided when I am going to test. My beta is next Thursday 13 days past ER. We decided to POAS on this Sunday, 6dp3dt. I am not expecting a BFP until at least Tuesday morning though. But hey.... we just can't help it.

I took my last dose of steroids today, woo-hoo they taste terrible! I switch my estrogen patches (two) every other day. I take Prenate DHA daily. I am still taking my daily IM shot of progesterone in my butt.... ouch! 

We got some sad news today. None of our embryos made it to "freeze."

So C and I had the dreaded, "what if" conversation. I feel like in order remain at peace I need to know there is a back up plan either way. Of course I want this to work on the first try. BUT I don't want to be too naive. So we decided that we will do another IVF cycle. That being said we may go elsewhere. And now that we are educated much more on this whole topic we will make sure we do the right thing for us. 

I'll be honest.... first starting this process I assumed since we have no fertility issues pregnancy would be inevitable. I hope I am right but I can't help but think I am way too naive. I also thought that we would definitely have frozen babies to try again if we needed. But i was wrong. Time will tell, in a weeks time we will know if I am pregnant. 


THIS TWW IS DRIVING ME CRAZY! 

PUPO

Well, today was the big day. We transferred two embryos. One was what they called "perfect" and the second one was "great."

Well my nerves have officially sunk in. Even though they told me countless times that  I can pee and they won't fall out... I am having a hard time believing it! Lol this will be the longest wait of my life!

On a side note the other embryos aren't looking so great. Two have stopped growing. And the other two are still growing slowly but have fragmentation :(. We will see if any of the two can freeze on day six.

I am just hopeful that the little embies inside of my uterus stick and grow :)!

Our beta is scheduled for March 28th, which is a day early due to my work schedule. I am not going to lie I plan on POAS before then, probably 6-8dp3dt.